No matter how blessed we may be, our daily struggles will affect us.
I’m Christian and although I love my fellow Christians, I truthfully can’t stand those whom believe that if you have a relationship with God, you can’t feel sad, you can’t be discouraged nor face moments of loneliness or depression.
That’s just not true.
Today wasn’t a good day for me at all. I felt guilty that I had to leave my son on his tablet longer than usual and I just hate seeing him bored out of his mind day in and day out.
Before having my daughter Nina, we were so used to going out even if it was for a walk, but now with her arrival everything has obviously changed.
It hit me today that things will never be the same. It hit me that outings will be much more challenging from here on out. It hit me that I was alone most of my days and I miss my husband terribly when he’s not around.
As I cried and grieved about how life was prior to Nina. And as I cried about feeling alone at home, I couldn’t help, but feel guilty.
I felt guilty because despite my loneliness and the changes that I’m going through, I should be happy about staying at home with my kids. I should be happy because I have the privilege of raising both of my kids full-time.
And then I realized something… just because I have my moments of sadness doesn’t mean that I’m not grateful for what God has given me. Just because I’m blessed in many ways, doesn’t mean that these small moments of loneliness won’t affect me. Just because I’m Christian doesn’t mean that I’m supposed to be happy all the time to demonstrate my gratefulness.
I prayed. I asked God to forgive me if I’ve been ungrateful and thanked Him for the adventures and new memories that lie ahead. I thanked him for giving me the gift of being my kids first audience, for giving me a front row seat during their childhood.
So, if you’ve felt like me and have even felt guilty for feeling bad or feeling lonely or for allowing yourself to get overwhelmed, I’m here to tell you that it’s okay.
It’s okay to grieve the life you had prior to your newborn. It’s okay to feel lonely or even depressed. Even if you haven’t had a baby recently this is also for you. Never feel guilty for allowing yourself be consumed by the blues. It happens and God isn’t looking down upon you disappointed at your feelings. God isn’t accusing you of being ungrateful.
Now, allow yourself the time to release all those emotions. You’re emotions are meant to be released. Each emotion has a physical response. It’s healthy to grieve. It’s healthy to cry. It’s healthy to let it all out as long as you’re not harming yourself or anyone else.
Once it’s out, declare God’s word upon your life. Begin to declare joy, declare fullness and prosperity in every area of your life, declare blessings…
Encourage yourself. Encourage yourself with God’s word. Pray and rejoice because God is with you. Everything in life is by seasons and each season has its process. Know that your current season or process has an end, and the ending of anything in Christ is always favorable.
So, next time you feel guilty, shake it off, allow yourself to release that good cry and keep seeking for God’s joy and guidance.
Be blessed sister. The best is ahead of you.
Thank you for reading.